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Sooner than I thought, but probably much later than what they would like to you are being followed, I finished the next chapter of my fic-AU Pirma.

My muse is stepping up the final days of the holiday season and it took me less than I usually do in writing this chapter. So I have seen little here and although I've read practically everything publicáis, I have not had much time to comment ... so I owe a lot of comments. Anyway I have still yet betear the next chapter of fic marikamp "A NEW BEGINNING" (which I recommend, not because I have nothing to doin it) I see far away the power to catch up with this LJ. I'm a mess, I know and I ask you a thousand apologies for that.

As the chapter on "WAITING FOR LOVE" I warn you that it is almost dedicated to Justin ... whole package of this episode is a mere decoration that you may know better all the reality that surrounds the "boy wonder" and how it has evolved since the beginning of fiction (in his life and his relationship with Brian.)

also want to do a little warning, from this chapter begins "the best and worst" in history (most know how much I love the drama, for that ...). The anxiety begins in the final scene of this chapter, but I promise that things will increase progressivelynt to the outcome of the story.

For if you need a little reminder, in the last chapter we left the boys in a cabin near a lake, enjoying a weekend alone together ...

I hope you like this "12 +1" ... I am superstitious and you?

Kisses my love.




13 .-

HIDDEN DEMONS Brian took a moment to realize he was not dreaming and that the moans he heard were real. He opened his eyes to see Justin sitting in the middle of the bed, knees drawn to her chest with her arms tightly surrounding them. Emitting plaintive murmurs breathing kept time rolling his body into aand forth in a constant alternation. From its position Brian could only see his back. The little light coming through the cracks of the shutter gave his skin a pearly
-Justin.

Justin did not answer, his breathing was rapid and irregular. Each breath of air sounded like a painful breath. Slowly moved his hand to gently touch his shoulder, his skin was cold and wet with sweat that covered. Justin immediately responded to her touch away while emitting a whine, like a frightened animal.

Brian withdrew his hand and took a deep breath becoming aware of the situation. It was not the first time I was witness to one of her panic attacks but did not remember ever meetings
- Is it better now? - felt like Justin nodded against his chest - What happened?
"It was just a nightmare. Sorry, I do not ... not want to wake ... Shhhhhhh
"All is well.
"No, it is not .- confessed.

Brian pushed him until both were lying. Justin's body was covered with a film of sweat and had been frozen, pulled the bed clothes to cover both shoulders.
- Would you tell me? - Justin looked at him strangely for a few seconds before putting on his side with his back
"There's nothing to tell Brian, are nightmares, dreams meaningless .- snapped. Brian spent his left arm under his head for curl blonde behind him, posI'm your other hand on the outer thigh of Justin
"It may not make sense but ... maybe if you talk about it ...
I do not think it will work also does not matter.
-does matter. When I awoke I was terrified, sweating y. ..- deep breath before continuing, just saying that talking about these images that you could dream of ... I do not know ...
"There's too much to tell. In my dream everything is black, no images only darkness ... I fall into the void and is so dark I'm very scared ... I can not see anything but I hear voices ... calling my father, my mother crying for me to say that Molly is not coming back and I heard him swallow ...- -... I want to answer loud but I can not speak, I try but my voice does not comey. .. is so damn overwhelming.
- Is it always the same dream? - Asked not to be too sure it was a good idea to dig into those dreams
"Not exactly the same but the darkness and the voices are always repeated ... Sometimes they are all these doors that go into a little reflex and fall while trying to exit the tunnel to reach them but I can not ... when I can reach any of them open it and get beyond it but ... but fall again and again vacuum is all black and I can see nothing, I hear voices screaming and unable to help me ...- her voice broke slightly. Brian came over his body pressing her chest to the back still sweaty and slippery Justin, swept his hand slowly from the thigh to the viJustin from where he kept gently stroking that little patch of skin.

After a moment of silent thought Justin was trying to sleep again, I could feel in his chest beats the heart of Justin and his breathing deep and quiet finally. Brian had long thought he had never met someone as tormented as Justin. His dark past, your day to day marked by a lot of silly rules, the loss of his sister, he could not remember the accident and its consequences ... not fair, thought Brian, is too young to deal with many tragedies and emerge unscathed from this. That was what surprised Brian, despite the shitty life he had lived through had never heard JustiI walk him every particle entering Justin threw a bad dream, filling it so that there is no room for their hidden demons. Slowly pushed again and again trying to tell Justin, without words, how much it meant. That to which had been fighting so long now seemed quite natural world ... so with every kiss, every caress Brian bared his soul to Justin, feeling at the same time as the essence of Justin seeped under his skin.

Justin's body was writhing with pleasure to have Brian in it completely ... sex was not only filling and stroking the inside, somehow Justin Brian took everything offered him, his emotions ... one by one and discovered eachmbestida. Looking into her green eyes to read in them the meaning of each stroke and every kiss until he was able to hear a "I care" with every breath and "I love you" every time Brian moaned his name. Brian's lips wandering through the skin of his neck, his shoulder or his neck saying only his touch all those things I could not put into words.

At the peak of her orgasm little Justin understood the value of words, any statement would be insignificant compared to what I had just experienced ... and the name of Brian moaned over and over again making it to climax with the sound of his voice and then, as if it were a revelation, Brian hit reality ... Justin was part of his life and which wouldTaylor, the Police Chief Stockwell himself had taken charge of all investigations backed by two of his trusted men. Brian was not surprised at all that one of them was Rikert, that was his last case before retirement and engage in play detective. Finally

Horbar confessed everything had seemed suspicious from the beginning, "I could not tell the reason but there was something in everything that I did not like and the speed with which it was given shelve the case ... I do not know, was it too hasty, as if he had something to hide "were his exact words.

The day after his meeting with Carl, Brian had met Sam's friend to provide all data that had sosubject. Brian thought that if you give him $ 10 for each "no" that Justin had taken to answer this week, possibly could start thinking about buying the damn Opera House. Hence his sense of helplessness, without a single clue what was happening in the world of Justin, unable to convince her that sex and getting hurt was not the solution and having received news that accursed detective, Brian felt completely useless because they can not do anything.

With a couple of strides reached his desk, picked up his phone and dialed the number without thinking of the detective, but before you press the call key, he realized that he was rushing. Barely four days since he had spoken and habto said he would call to update you of any important detail to find out. "I'm acting like a paranoid," he thought leaving the phone next to your laptop. Snorted angry with himself and sat down looking for something to do, that reminded him how much he had changed. Months ago it would have been running at Babylon to drink, dance, get high and fuck up the idea that he was obsessed disappear from your mind, but now Babylon was not the solution.

He looked across his desk among the papers, I needed to be busy, maybe I could start with this report ... when he saw the little picture that Justin had done some months ago. Although his face was not remarkable at all, Brian was able to recognize your bodyconsidering that her face was covered with ... "Something green" thick that only showed her eyes and mouth
"I have said that you would be here ... How's the evening of girls? - Brian asked with a wink reassuring Daphne looked at him from frightened and intrigued
"Better since you've come .- Emmett said straightening then the girl's head on the headrest of the chair while I said "Honey, you should not move a single muscle in your beautiful face.
"I need to talk to you .- Brian said, addressing the girl barely blinked
" Well have to wait to complete its seaweed mask .- Emmett waved their hands getting to Brian, horrified that this could stop so importantue
there was nothing-is ... fuck is it just that? ... What is your aunt? - Rubbed his face with his hands trying to contain - you kidding me?
"That's why you did not wanted to say anything he said would think that is stupid.
-Daphne, es_una_jodida_estupidez .- emphasizing every word said the wrath of the girl who stood up on the couch
- For him it is not, you fucking idiot! - Brian looked at her with wide eyes - Do not you realize ? The presence of his aunt made everything easier, her mother had gone out of its lethargy y. .. to the jerk of his father seems to give a break when Alice is at hand.
"Okay, I understand but ... Is it really so important?
- Brian Joder! is the only one who knows que exist, you know. Justin trusts her.


Brian could not understand how something so ... insignificant could affect both Justin. Daphne tried to explain that it was not simply the fact that Alice would return to Toronto as the Progress girl Alice was a huge weight in the backpack that had Justin on his back. Emmett

appeared suddenly from the back of the salon, humming the same song by Gloria Gaynor as he walked towards them strutting cheerfully and wearing a fur coat of a raucous orange
- Have you finished? It's late and I have to go to see Vic and Rodney to finalize some details for tomorrow's opening .- standing toorrible, could spend hours talking about it
"Sure .- agreed the girl smiling" But when the visit was ending and she had to go How did you feel?

Emmett's face changed completely, the brightness of his eyes disappeared and his tone was a bit anxious when I finally answered
"I could not describe it. I knew I was gay since ... well, I think forever, but had never told anyone, anyone but her. His visits were a real release, she never had to pretend like the rest. So when Aunt Lula had to leave, for me, was a real drama. Daphne

stroked the face of Emmett trying to comfort him, then looked at Brian arching his relentfamous list of names does not admit further discussion. After calling Claire is approached the front door and the two men said the misunderstanding.

-Go two hounds you have scrounged sister .- Brian said while his sister took his arm to direct the interior
"They just follow commands .- Brian glanced at her" And if you were not on the list is because I thought you arrive fashionably late as usual.

Before entering the main hall and heard the commotion and just pass the entrance arch Emmett saw his face so red it looked like was going to explode at any time while waving his arms in the air hysterically. Rodney tried to calm him without successBrian's voice hid a speck of guilt "It has been a week of hell.
-Brian, you need not feel guilty. Do more than you think by Gus ... and for me .- the girl put her arm around Brian's waist and rested her head on his chest while walking to the next exhibit.
- With whom did you leave today?
-is with Melanie, have a great time together ... Gus loves her.
"I see you're on track with the attorney .- whispered in her ear making her blush. Linds looked up at him and cleared his throat before saying
"I think you're getting too. By the way, Anny called me and told me how much they liked Justin. Anny
"So, eh! You are a gossip.
"Maybe a little ...- riacid and I thought ... I thought you a sob ...- prevented him from continuing. Brian felt like a knot tightening your throat making it difficult to talk
- What do you mean gone?
"Your father told me that they know nothing about him since this morning .- Daphne spoke between sobs and moans.
- Shit! Damn, Justin ... -Brian
think I could go home, do not know ... I'm home and not go out if it comes ... but I think he will go to your house ... I ... I do not know ...- between nerves and the cries of the girl Brian found it difficult to understand
-Daphne, listen are you listening?
"Yes.
"I'm going home now. If you call me out there. Okay?
"Okay.

Brian hung up the phone and approachedLindsay was still talking to Sam
-Linds, I have to go .-
interrupting said "But the blonde looked puzzled ...-

" I can not tell you anything now but I need to do something for me .- Linds noticed that whatever Brian, sought out there was extremely important

"Whatever he said
.-" If Justin comes over here do not let it go and call me immediately.
- Justin? Have you gone ...? Lindsay
, please ... Will you? - The blonde just nodded seeing Brian run the public had already begun to pace the gallery.